Oh, here is the thing I thought was lost for good.

So I was wanting to make this short film about, I don’t know, frustration, futility, idiocy, I guess, and I thought the perfect expression of it was that spinning around rainbow colored ball that appears on your computer screen when something is fucked up beyond wall all hope and the only way out is to do a force quit– one step better, I guess than pulling the plug entirely. So now my deliema was how to get the rainbow ball to spin at will, because, of course, according to Murphy’s Law, it was NOT going to coopoerate. But then it came to me! Go to MYSPACE, any page, it didn’t matter, click on something here and there, and… spinning rainbow ball!

I’m not a People Person

I’ve always been kind of disdainful of that concept, “People Person”– if for no other reason than it’s often so hypocritacal– the people who SAY they ARE are ususally the most people hating people out there. But the thing is, deep inside I really AM a people person at heart– because I really DO love people! I don’t make a big deal about it– it just comes natural to me to treat people with respect for which there is an underlying love. I guess the one thing I always thought about the them “people person” is that it kind of put people above animals, or implied it. I don’t really agree with that. I think in reality, I’m an animal person first, and only then am I a people person.

Sugar Plum Faeires

It was one of those days where all day I just kept asking myself, “Why? Why?” Never getting any further than that. All because of this dream I had, just after going to sleep. I have forgotten all the elaborate background and rich details—up until the point when someone was choking me from behind, cutting off my oxygen, and I was struggling, struggling, until finally I picked up a fork off the counter in front of me and stabbed backwards at the guy’s head. I felt the fork sink in, so I knew it must have gone right into his eye socket. It would have been nice if he let go then, but no. I had to keep struggling, fighting, until I woke up.

MY SPACE AMERICAN IDOL SPINNING BALL QUIT

I haven’t written anything here in awhile because I’ve been using my myspace page more, since that’s where the kids are, and I’m pathetically trying to keep WITH IT. Lately, however, I can’t even LOG ON because whenever I got to the log on page there is some kind of moving around ad that moves in front of the log on button, or like today, this AMERICAN IDOL ad that freezes up the whole page, and computer, and then there’s the spinning rainbow ball which persists until I FORCE QUIT. So it’s not me, so much, it’s that I have been coerced.

What Pet Needs To Be Most Adopted?

I was thinking, if you’re going to adopt a pet, maybe you should adopt one that REALLY needs a home. I guess this is one philosophy of pet adoption– adopt something that no one else would want, or at least the LAST animal in the shelter to get adopted. The really cute and likable animals will go pretty fast, and they can take care of themselves, pretty much, just by virtue of being cute.

Okay, I looked on the INTERNET to see what the ugliest pets in the world were, and boy was that a mistake. Maybe I DON’T want to adopt the ugliest pets ever, or the most pathetic. I’ll rephrase that; maybe I should be on the lookout for pets that are “cute in their own way.”

If I Get a Chihuahua, What Will I Name It?

There is nothing more fun than naming pets (unless it’s naming a band) and so it’s been on my mind what to name a chihuahua if I got one– though I don’t know yet if I am. My Aunt and Uncle had a chihuahua named Pepper. I read somewhere that 84 percent of all chihuahuas are named Pepper!

No, I made that up– but I bet it’s not far from the truth. Anyway, what are some other chihuahua names? I looked at a website for ideas, and my favorites are: Nibbler, Tinkerbelle, Laptop, Beaner, and Jurasic. But I’m still thinking about it.

Chihuahua’s Are Nice

They are the smallest dogs, so logic would have it that they would be the easiest to clean up the poop of. I think that’s the first and last time I’m ever going to put those two words in that order: “poop of.”

Especially teacup chihuahuas, which are REALLY small. Though not as small as a shot glass chihuahua. I think I’ve always been intimidated by trying to SPELL chihuahua, but it’s a word that once you figure out how to spell it, it’s irresistible, like Mississippi.

I (heart) puppies!

There is nothing in the world I like more than puppies! Well, that is if you aren’t including pizza; but there’s nothing in the world I love more than pizza and puppies. It’s funny how they both start with the letter “P”– maybe there’s something to that?! What other things that I love start with the letter “P”?

There is Peas, which I do really love. And the Post office. And the Police (both the Public servants, AND the band (well, their first couple of albums, anyway).) And Peanut butter. Not to mention Peanuts. The color Purple is nice, though not my favorite. I wonder if I could find some Play Doh, or however weird it was spelled, like on ebay? I especially liked the white play doh! I like Paper a lot!

It’s not everyday you hear someone, especially using a computer, talk about how much they like paper!

Oh, and I do really love this ‘Puter!

Laundry

I love doing the laundry. No, I hate it. But I love it. I hate it, too, but I love it. I mean, I can imagine a day when I might be able to pay someone to do my laundry for me, and I would never have to do laundry EVER AGAIN in my life. And I can also imagine, on that day, the feeling that I have lost something. Something that was important to me that I didn’t realize was important to me was gone. Laundry.

What is a “Weblo”?

Not to be confused with “Webelo” — I think that’s how they spell it — which is what you are between being a Cub Scout and a Boy Scout — WEBLO is short for WEBLOG, not unlike the term BLOG, which I, for one, can’t stand the sound of! So I am using my own term, okay?